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Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Interstitial Cystitis Woes

"Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living."

Jonathan Safran Foer

Right now, my body is literally controlling my life and I find myself straining under the weight of it all. From the missed workouts, Starbucks in the morning, spur of the moment travels, and desire to seek out new employment opportunities the things that once spurred me along, rejuvenated me, and inspired me are no longer the same. There are so many lives I want to be living, but right now I am here. In this body. Living this life. Trying to make the most of it. Trying to reinvent my life and find new opportunities and passions that will motivate, inspire, and make me feel like I am living an important life on this Earth. I'm attempting to refuse to put limits on my life, yet also be realistic about what I am physically able to endure. I think I am able to endure anything. But in my darkest moments, it's hard to believe that. But I have to. However, by forcing these lives I want to live, I don't want the hard work and stress to cause more suffering. It's a catch 22. I feel like I am missing out on so much and I am straining beneath it all, but am not sure how much to push myself. Should we accept our limitations in life or should we never put limits on ourselves no matter what we are going through? Should we accept where God has us now and not force things we know may not be best or healthiest for us or should we trust that God will  get us through no matter what we choose to do? That is where I am at in this moment. On this day in time. Am I strong enough to handle more? Am I able to let God be my strength? Sometimes, I don't know. But I truly pray I am. I want to be fearless in life more than anything! To take on new challenges without fear - no matter what my body says. To not fear anything or anyone. To fill my life with people, places, and experiences that inspire others. To show love and compassion and be a heart changer in the world. I don't talk about what I am going through much, but I do want people to be aware in case they think I am rude/lazy/wimpy/weak/etc. so they know there may be more going on beneath the surface than what they see everyday. If you could throw a heartfelt prayer my way I would appreciate it.

X, A!


Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Peanut Butter Granola Balls

I love peanut butter and granola. In fact, whenever I make any sort of peanut butter/granola concoction I eat it all up in a day. It can be dangerous. Good thing these can be made as healthy or dirty as you want! Just omit or add anything you prefer to make it healthier. That's the beauty of this recipe. You can even do it gluten and dairy free (which I did). Also if you prefer more of one ingredient, feel free to add more and compensate by increasing the honey or PB or use less of another ingredient to keep the texture right. I've seen several recipes like this posted online, but decided to make up my own because they are all basically the same and there is no exact science to it. You could do the same, but here is my version to do with what you will. Trust me, these are a fast and tasty breakfast!

Peanut Butter Granola Balls
Recipe by Angela Atkins

Ingredients
  • 1 cup (dry) oatmeal
  • 1/4 cup carob or chocolate chips (optional)
  • 1/4 cup slivered almonds
  • 1/4 cup pumpkin seeds or sunflower seeds
  • 1/4 cup peanut butter
  • 1/4 cup almond butter (or use all PB)
  • 1/4 cup flax seed
  • 1/4 cup rice krispies
  • 1/2 cup honey or agave
  • 1/4 cup flaked coconut (optional)
  • 1 tsp. vanilla

Directions

Stir all ingredients together in a large bowl until thoroughly mixed. Roll into 1 inch balls and chill in refrigerator for half an hour. Store in an airtight container in refrigerator for up to 1 week.

X, A!